MORNING RAGE!

So I had a few extra moments this morning while getting ready for work I decided to sit down and vent and tell the world about the rage I went in to this morning.  I had a battle with junk food last night and it got the best of me and I'm FURIOUS and I came back and first thing this morning kicked it's sorry little ass!  Last night I completely forgot what time our tax guy was supposed to be coming....at first I thought 6 and then thought maybe 6:30, well my appointment wasn't until 7 AND he was running late....normally not a big deal, but when we came home I didn't want to be in the middle of making dinner when he arrived, so we had a "snack"  Well our snack turned in to a counter full of crap food....partially because I don't think I'm eating enough calories throughout the day so when I get home I have the urge to binge....popcorn, jelly beans, and dill pickle chips.  Then AFTER the tax guy left, we needed to have a "real" dinner...and the reason I have the word REAL in quotations is because the crap that I served myself and my kids for dinner was anything BUT real....a frozen Jack's pizza....C-R-A-P!  It didn't even taste good, but it filled us up....oh yeah and followed by MORE jelly beans grrrrrrrrrrr.  So not only did I NOT sleep good all night, DIDN'T want to wake up this morning, but I wake up beyond dehydrated and bloated so badly I can't get my ring off my finger....the same ring that was FALLING off last summer.  Straight to the kitchen I went in my pjs, hair a mess, no bra and threw away every BIT of junk food that I held ownership too....the chips, pretzels, marshmallows left from my sons birthday cake, licorice, ALL OF IT!!!!  GONE!!!!  I'm done!!!!  If I'm going to go to the gym and I'm going to bust my ass as hard as I do, I want to see results and if I keep eating the junk food, results is the LAST thing I'm going to see and I'm completely wasting my workouts.  I don't bust my ass at the gym so I can gorge on crap food and not gain weight....I bust my ass to be healthy, to feel great, and to get to a size and body I'm comfortable in...that is NOT what's happening, so I'm done!  I'm done with the junk!  I'm done with the crap!  I'm done...it's over...NO MORE!!!  From this very instant forward...I WILL eat healthy, I will NOT cheat myself out of the future and body I deserve!