That being said, I also started meeting with my trainer again....yup, she's mine again. Tina and I have worked out a random schedule and we have a plan in place to get me back on track. First of all, was a little evaluation, workout, and a detox of sorts...."Back to Basics" is what Tina has always called it. It was VERY VERY basic...to the point of boring and I felt VERY deprived and because I'm an emotional eater and this came out left field so I wasn't prepared on ANY level, it took a second attempt and a start over to get through the 5 days on nothing but poulty, fish, veggies, protein shakes, and water. That's it. No fruit, no nuts, eggs, seasoning or condiments. It was challenging, but I eventually made it through and have brought back fruits now.
Going forward, I am doing my best to follow the paleo lifestyle and putting a lot of focus in to yoga. Not only is it relaxing and good for flexibility, it's an incredibly body weight workouts. I have some other plans of Tina's that I will put in to play several times a week in addition to the yoga, but a LOT of my focus will be on yoga, clean eating, and enjoying life.
Speaking of enjoying life....my Mother's Day gift from my mom was this GORGEOUS sherbert colored cruiser bike that I can take for family bike rides around town this summer and I absolutely can NOT wait for it to arrive and get it assembled!
Tina and I had a chat about motivation when we got together last week and I told her I felt awful for letting down my man. We'd made a deal that if we lost a combined 60 lbs, we would plan a cruise and go together. He did awesome and rocked the hell out of weight loss....I didn't. I didn't gain, but I didn't lose either....I'm really good at staying in the 250ish range and hanging tight there. I didn't get to the gym as much as I could have and I didn't apply myself as much as I could've and I think I realized it's because I'm not motivated by material things.....vacations, gifts, etc....those are all nice and wonderful, but they don't motivate me. Tina said it best when she said "people motivate you" and she hit the nail on the head. PEOPLE, RELATIONSHIPS, INTERACTION....THAT is what motivates ME. An acquantance of mine came to me last week and started the conversation by saying "I've been facebook stalking you...." that's always great right? RIGHT?!?!?!?! Anyway, it was in a good way and she'd discovered some old pictures and figured out on her own the strides I'd made in improving my health the last several years and was curious if I could help her too. This same girl I see on a regular basis and she's been a part of professional circle for a good chunk of time, but we'd never really gotten a chance to chat and get to know each other on a personal level....well that line has been drawn and raced across....we were MEANT to know each other and MEANT to be a part of each other's personal lives. We have SO much in common. From our past with bad relationships and men to our struggles and battles with up and down weight loss and gain, diets, etc and we are both with the men of our dreams now and ready to change our lives.....together. Me helping her, helps me....does that make sense? I can't wait to get together with her and the man of her dreams and help them set attainable goals and help them get to those goals! She and I were CLEARLY meant to be friends! <3
Now that being said, I've decided I need to rethink and refocus some of my goals. ANYONE who knows me well knows I'm the type who is all or nothing and for me to be successful, that HAS to change a little bit. Today, I've been thinking hard about how to proceed forward. I am a goal driven person, so I NEED to have a goal and currently, there wasn't anything concrete in place. So I decided that the easiet goal to monitor is weight. GRANTED I preach all the time that weight is just a number on the scale and I still whole heartedly believe that, so I'm setting myself up for success my not making my goal SO aggressive that it ends up stressing me out, forcing me in to sabotaging myself. This time my motto is "Slow and steady wins the race", so my number one goal is to be under 200 lbs by Christmas. Judging from the weight I was on the scale with Tina (in the evening and after I'd eaten all day) that would be 2.5 lbs per week. TOTALLY doable and VERY healthy and I know I've dropped a good chunk of that already from the "Back to Basics Detox" I referred to earlier, so it really should've be a problem, but it's aggressive enough that I have to stay focused or I could easily bomb. I would LOVE to be under 200 by labor day, but I think that is pushing it and the last thing I want is to feel defeated just a couple months before the holidays are in full swing, so we'll keep it simple and unstressful.
I know I have a lot of people on my side and I have a lot of people rooting for me and I KNOW I can do this. I HAVE to do this.
Here comes the first day of the rest of my life......
