Yup, he said it right when he said "About due for a blog aren't we?" I didn't realize it had been a month already! Yowza! Time flies when you're.....a single mommy!
I've been super busy with my personal and professional life lately and barely finding time to eat and pee, let alone sit down for the time it takes to write a blog post, but when someone special is missing your posts, it's time!
So here goes....
I've lost a few lbs since my last post and have been setting SMALL DAILY goals, because that's what I feel like I need to do. Most days it's just to get to the gym, but days I'm in the office the goals are more food focused..."stay away from the snack shop" or "stay away from Cindy's bowl of tootsie rolls" and that seems to be much more effective than trying to be perfect every single day. Because I have to face the fact, I am NOT perfect. I'm GOING to screw up. Maybe once or twice a month, maybe once or twice a week, but as long as I keep moving forward and not backward I am succeeding....this journey was easier when I had two incomes and could afford a sitter at my leisure and could pay a personal trainer to whip me in to shape and didn't have to drive to an office 32 miles away from home and I made it look easy then. But the honest truth now is that my living and financial situation is VERY different and as much as I know I can not use that as an excuse to not succeed, it just makes me have to work HARDER to succeed and that's something I have to take pride in. Surviving as a single mom is one thing, succeeding as a single mom is quite another, succeeding or atleast IMPROVING every single aspect of life as a single mom of two little ones is one hell of an accomplishment....so I know you are thinking....what else can she possibly be doing....so here goes....
I am SLOWLY getting healthier, working out, eating right, etc
I am SLOWLY repairing my credit and attempting to save every penny I can for a house in the coming years - so just save money right? Nope, I have old debts and legal issues to deal with - this isn't about just keeping up, it's about cleaning up the past AND keeping up AND looking forward to the future and making sure I'm doing the right thing and taking the right steps to get US to our dream.
I am staying INVOLVED in my kids school and with their teachers. My little guy is 4 1/2 and goes to preschool two days a week and when he's not at preschool he attends a preschool supplement program at the elementary school. My daughter is 6 and rocking Kindergarten like nobody's business. - so there in school what does THAT have to do with anything? Other people take care of them every day, no work for mom right? WRONG! There are schedules, library books, lunches to be packed, field trips to approve, volunteer opportunities to keep up with, donations of beads and sequins and other art supplies to be made, there is "Person of the Week" and "Preschool Superstar" that require coordinating and posters and projects, there is homework (yes, even in Kindergarten), there is reading and calculating pages and times for awards....there is a LOT to being a school ager's mama
I am working in my office multiple days a week to train new employees on a portion of our business that I have expertise in....so just a few training classes right? WRONG - I coordinate and schedule the training classes, shadowing with seasoned reps, and trying to coordinate all of THEIR schedules as well as making sure I'm not pulling too many people off of the incoming phone line. And trying to keep the three supervisors, 4 leads, and 1 manager informed of the "plan" and whereabouts of their reps I'm working with. This responsibility is greater than alot of other reps in my particular position, but it is one that I am honored to have because I know I am showing my worth as well as demonstrating I can be trusted to delegate work to.
I have pets (Guinea Pigs) that aren't a lot of WORK really, but they need vitamins and fresh fruits and veggies everyday as well as a constant supply of hay and pellets and what about exercise and handling? Yup, they SHOULD come out of their cage everyday to play and be socialized
I have an exhusband who enjoys the court room, so I have to coordinate funds and time with my attorney and court dates and make sure I still have enough time saved in case the kids get sick or school is closed....speaking of....the kids ARE sick....atleast ONE of the three of us has been on antibiotics for the last month and a half...BLECH!
And then I'm a mommy to two beautiful kids and I have to make sure my behavior and my stress level and all of the adult responsibilities I have affect how I parent. I need to still give hugs and snuggles and read bedtime stories and kiss owies and make sure we have QUALITY time together because it's limited to AT THE MOST 2.5 hours every night.
Lastly (but definitely not least important) I have an amazing boyfriend who listens to me rant and cuss and vent about any and all of the above struggles and he helps me every single day with motivation, inspiration, and reassurance. We don't get NEAR enough time together (sometimes only a couple hours in 2 weeks) and when we ARE together we are being parents to his kids or my kids or both and we so badly crave time alone together, but when you have something as good as what I believe we have....it's worth waiting for, and planning for, and fighting for the "someday" that lies ahead. I couldn't imagine my life without this man. He makes me a better me. But that's what relationship are supposed to be right? Two independent people who encourage each other to be and do the best they can.
Would I trade this life? Absolutely not. I am EARNING my future, no matter how it turns out and while I may not be a millionaire or have a big fancy house, etc I WILL have my health and my family and I will love every moment of it.
So I will continue to take things one day, one hour, one minute, one SECOND at a time and do the best that I can do with the life I was given.
Today I was up at 5:15 to have the kids up and out the door and to school by 6:15 to make it to the gym by 6:20 and get at LEAST an hour in before I had to rush home to punch in to work by 7:30 so I could make up time for a court date planned for tomorrow (which has now been cancelled). I lifted weights, I squatted, I pulled, rocked the Arnolds on a Bosu, and then I ran. When I say I ran I didn't continue on with the "start over" I'd given myself on C25K, but I started where I left off this summer....Week 5 Day 1.....and I survived. I didn't pause to stretch during the walking intervals, but I did it....5 minutes of running to 2.5 minutes of walking. Then I came home and enjoying a caramel pineapple Chobani Bite yogurt followed by quinoa stewp I'd put together last week (ground turkey, veggies, quinoa, tomato sauce, etc) YUM!
For lunch, which I will be eating as I work because I spent so much time blogging) I'll be having a second dose of the Quinoa Turkey Soup.
For dinner - I'm not even sure at this point.....one hour at a time remember? hehehehe.
Anyway, I hope everyone is well and continuing on their own healthy road.
Happy Wednesday!
