Unexpected motivation

So, yesterday I was in the office in Minneapolis, so I didn't make it to the gym :(

This morning I was up and ready to rock and roll though!  Since it was well below zero I decided to pull my Fast before the Feast 5K shirt out that has the nice UA type material and it's long sleeved.  That paired with a hoodie and long yoga pants, NOT capris and I was all set....well except my tennis shoes needed to be in a bag thanks to the snow so I emptied my softball gear from my Total Wellness Coaching nap sack, packed my shoes up and out the door.

When I got to the gym and looked in the mirror after tieing on my bandana I smiled.  3 years ago I earned that shirt by running a 5K in 6 degree weather and the only time I walked was because I didn't have any YakTrax and was scared of slipping on the ice lol.  After that little walk down memory lane I glanced at my TWC bag with my headphones, workout plan, etc spilling out of it and smiled again.  3 years ago I was also an active member of an amazing group of women that I miss dearly, but I'm reminded that no matter how far away I move they are always there with me....helping me carry my running shoes.

So while I proceeded through my leg workout I did a lot of thinking.....this is why I ENJOY working out alone in the mornings....I think....A LOT.  It's the only portion of most days I have to be alone with my thoughts and not be juggling the million hats that a full time employee, single mama, photography owner has.  So I thought and realized that I haven't been watching my food intake very closely and have had more PB&J sandwiches that I probably should have and have popped a few more tootsie rolls than I should have and that's likely why I'm not losing the lbs that I want to lose even though I'm in the gym AT LEAST 4 days a week for an hour or more each of those days.  Yes, I'm building muscle.  Yes, I'm losing weight.  Yes, I'm gaining endurance.  Yes, I'm getting smaller....BUT I COULD be doing a lot better and doing all of this a lot faster, but I don't always make the more ideal choices.

So while I was sweating right through my 2010 Fast Before the Feast purple long sleeve and while I tied on my bandana and while I carried my shoes in my TWC bag I thought....maybe after the holidays and QUICKLY remembered a blog post from a LONG time ago that asked "So what exactly will be easier about waiting?"...I just as quickly answered myself....NOTHING.  So today and going forward, I want to do better.  I'll never be perfect.  Chocolate is my weakness and I will indulge here and there, but I can definitely do better than what I'm currently doing.  I HAVE to do better.  This struggle will be life long and I don't deny that.  I'm going to slip, I'm going to fall and I'm GOING to get back up, dust myself off and laugh in the face of doubt, negative self talk, and procrastination.  My favorite quote is "I may not succeed immediately, but I will DEFINITELY!"

<3 TGIF ALL!