Update

Well there it is ladies and gentlemen.  Out there for everyone to see.  I updated my weight on my blog.  I've been avoiding it because I'm embarrassed that in only 6 months I've managed to gain over 50 lbs back.  I'm not going to blame it on anything except my own lack of self worth, dedication, and ability to channel my stress effectively.  If I can't be honest with everyone else, how can I be honest with myself.  Maybe I was thinking that if I didn't acknowledge it, it didn't happen, but the truth is it did.  I gained quite a bit of weight back, I've had to buy new jeans, bigger size shirts and last time I was at Maurice's I was back shopping on the plus size side of the store.  To me, that was devastating and I was ANGRY!  I couldn't believe after all the hard work I had done and all the progress and changes I'd made to make lifestyle changes that I slacked SO much and let myself go yet again.  I, however, am calling this part of the change and refuse to slip any further! 

I've met someone absolutely amazing and reconnected with some friends from the past who all want to get healthy together, so I'm slowly developing a new support system in my new town.  I still value and cherish all my girls in Cambridge/Isanti and will always have them just a few key strokes or number dials away, but having support CLOSE to me is vital.

Lunch is over....more about my new trainer later :)