Reflecting

So tonight was great!!  I did Zumba with some of my better friends and then afterward a group of us ran the mile.  Yes, folks, I did it again...I ran the WHOLE mile and did not stop once.  Didn't walk, didn't stop I just ran and it felt amazing.  After I said goodbye to my sitter and her fantastic mama and opened my computer to see my profile picture on facebook and I started crying.  Why would I cry over a picture of myself?  Because for the very first time in my life, I feel beautiful.  I have come SO far in the last 16 months.  Not only have I changed physically (and boy have I!), but I have changed mentally, emotionally, EVERYTHING about me has changed.  I am nowhere NEAR the person I used to be.  I'm better than I've ever been.  I'm fit, I'm confident, I'm getting leaner and stronger every single day!  For once in my life I am very very proud of my accomplishments.  It's getting easier to understand how others look to me for inspiration and motivation and it's overwhelming when I finally realize that I AM worth every ounce of hard work I have and AM putting in.  I'm WORTH the more expensive nutritious foods, I'm WORTH the monthly class fees, I'm WORTH all of it.  There is only one me, my kids have only one mommy, and my husband only has one wife and I can't be replaced.  They all think I'm worth it and so many of my REAL friends think I'm worth it and finally FINALLY tonight I'm starting to see what they see.  I am starting to understand and feel worthy of all of the fabulous things in my life.  I owe so many thanks to so many people for helping me on this journey, but I couldn't have done it without.....me.