Super bummed!

So, I had to miss bootcamp tonight for lack of a babysitter.  I am soooooo bummed!  Believe it or not, I very much look forward to the ass whooping I get from Tina.  Maybe I'm a glutten for punishment, maybe I just know that it's good for me...who knows.  Either way I'm very upset that I had to miss a night and the frustration and boredom has got me fighting old habits.  I can't tell you how many times I've gone to the kitchen and looked through the cupboards for something to put in my mouth, something to occupy my hands, something to....well just SOMETHING.  I haven't given in to temptation so far and I don't plan to.  I KNOW it's going to backfire and only make me feel worse about myself.  So here I sit looking for something to occupy the time until bedtime.  If it weren't for the kids, I would go to bed simply to get away from the temptation of the kitchen.