Changes

Tonight at bootcamp was awesome!  I got my ass handed to me, but I feel great!  Tina is a great trainer and I am loving her almost as much as I love Julie.  Tina and I had a nice chat tonight too.  I've come to the realization that I have an obsession with my scale.  I weigh myself every single morning and sometimes (especially Tuesdays when I weigh in at the WLC) I get on the scale 3, 4, even 5 times a day.  I've done some very unhealthy things to try to eliminate as much weight as I can on Tuesdays, especially if I know I may not have lost as much as I would like to see.  When I gain, stay the same, or even lose less than a lb I am PISSED!  I stress out about it, which is obviously counter-productive.  We all know that stress boost cortisol, which makes our bodies hold on to the belly fat that we all hate so much.  So it's time to destress.....

I will be giving up the weight loss challenge.  Not because I'm failing or not doing well, but because it's become an unhealthy obsession and it only stresses me out on a weekly basis.  I know people will be disappointed in this, but I have to do it in order to maintain my sanity and ultimately eliminate some of the stress which in turn will hopefully help me let go of the number on the scale as well as some of that darn cortisol.

I am going to focus on more than just the number on the scale.  I'm getting stronger, my endurance is increasing and my body is changing, even if the number on the scale is not going down, I'm changing for the better and that's a good thing!!